Those We Get To Know

Yesterday, I got home from class--which flew by really quick--did that worksheet for homework so I didn't have to do that way later and the remainder of my time was spent with just me...bummin'...waiting for Late Night with Jimmy Fallon to come on at 11:35PM...Until later that evening...


In response to (Untitled) Thursday...


...I had a quick call from Her--yes, remember...Her?--She called me up...and I answered, "Hello?" She said, in a somewhat of a stern tone, "Read my blog...And go online. On AIM. Leave a comment, too." I replyed, with a slight hesitation, thinking..."That's it? You just called to tell me that...?" I was sorta laughing inside...But I replyed back to her and said, "...Okay..." Then...**click**...That was it.

She caught me off-guard with this one.

So, I go downstairs to the basement, turned on the computer, and almost at the same time, I start to log on to AIM (mind you, I haven't been on AIM in so so SO long...) and to my blog...which, I then clicked the link to her blog...and I found that it was the longest entry that she's ever posted, so far. It turned out to be my favorite. Anyways, I read her post and after reading it, it was hard to tackle what she had written...I wasn't sure where or how to start it off. I'm not saying this in a bad way AT ALL...I meant that it was well-written...about what she said, and well...it was about Her. I mean, I understood what she was talking about...but it was some of the other parts in Her entry that really got to me...It was all about Her. Her functions...how she functions...where she is coming from...Her perspectives. It was Her own life that was working in Her post...I'm finally understanding Her more. I remember she'd tell me that no on else understands Her...and that there are very few who do...She mentioned me. I'm that very few. But after reading that, I finally know more, now, where she is coming from...Seeing that in Her life, translating that back into written from, just makes me feel much closer to Her...Almost makes me want to change things that I believe in, myself...

I've known Her now for a few years...and yet, it's still complicated. Not in a bad sense, though. But putting that aside, there was always, always something about Her that I just couldn't get enough of--and it ain't what you're thinkin'...you freaks--it was Her...Herself...She's interesting, profound, and very unique in Her own...Very well-rounded woman. I've said to Her that I've never met anyone that has this...this life. I'm thinking to myself right now that you have to love yourself to love others. She has that and much, much more...Yet, I still try to fight my way through Her...But I know...I can't. Now now...

I really believe and feel that she isn't like other woman. She knows who she is...she knows what she is talking about. What's seen around Her and lived throughout Her life. Strong-minded...strong-hearted. Chances...

Sometimes I think...those chances...Why do I still cling on? Why do we both? I'm starting to understand...



Am I the only one that sees this in a person...Her? Why can't anyone have that quality? Just look at people and society today...it's like half the time, they don't know what they're doing...they THINK they know who they are, but they don't. Demeaning...

I almost know her all to well now--not to brag; Sometimes, I totally miss that and I get in trouble. But there's always that feeling that there will always be more about Her that I still don't know, yet...and other things yet to be observed. Positive things...Feelings, thoughts, opinions, emotions that are still yet to be conveyed by Her...

You're my damn favorite...
Those we get to know...I've gotten to know...

b. next time, I see You...